This is Christina

Growing up as a woman of colour, I never felt that I was enough. When I was bullied in middle school, I believed I had deserved it – because I was too different to ever be beautiful. I would let people treat me however they wanted because in my own eyes, I wasn’t enough for the world.
Olivia Sari-Goerlach        OSG Photography

Olivia Sari-Goerlach        OSG Photography

There is no one that can define beauty as a specific kind. There are all forms of beauty whether it may be physical or mental; I know this sounds very typical, but it could not be more accurate. Growing up as a woman of colour, I never felt that I was enough. Through the eyes of my ten-year-old self, the most beautiful types of women were the tall, skinny, blue eyed, blonde women that would be on television or the Victoria secret models that had perfect skin, teeth, hair, and bodies. Now don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that these women aren’t beautiful, they most definitely are, but growing up I felt like it was the only type of beauty out there; the physical kind. I felt that because I had grown up with brown eyes, brown hair, short, and half Asian, I could never be beautiful. When I was bullied in middle school, I believed I had deserved it – because I was too different to ever be beautiful. I would let people treat me however they wanted because in my own eyes, I wasn’t enough for the world. When I finally realized that beauty was within was when I started getting really involved in my philanthropy work and that showed me how important it is to get to know people past the surface level.

 Now I am not saying that I am a perfect person who is constantly promoting self-worth and love; I am imperfect. I try to love people passionately and go the extra mile when helping others but sometimes feel like I still can’t be enough. It took me years to realize that imperfection can also be beautiful, yet I still struggle with it everyday.

The point I’m really trying to get across is that it’s okay to be imperfect, because everyone finds beauty in this world through something that’s important to him or her. I believe in beauty through the physical sense, but also I see beauty through philanthropy work. I believe beauty is giving back, learning why your existence is important to this world and making an impact on your community. I was able to overcome my fears and insecurities through my love for others and longing feeling to want to help and in my eyes that’s what beauty is all about.

 

- Christina Sunwoo

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